& it was about it* & i didnt know he knew all this time, & he kept his cool everysince.
fuck, i regret not telling him then, cz she cosz alot to our family.
I didnt want it to happen like this, but it did.
& what done is done.
I can never forgive her for this, NEVER. I still love her, & im missin' her already. But she should of thought of it before she did it, she knew the consequences, & what was gonna happen if she was going to do it! Its her fault, PERIOD.
& now, I cant even think straight. All this happeing' i cant even enjoy my break now, cz of this.
I hate it, I really do. BROKEN & DONE.
When i overheard my daddeh, i felt so sad, b'cosz he did his best & everything to her, She fucking stupid.
I couldn't even sleep las'night. Cant' help but cry, & cry :(
THIS IS BULLLSHIT,
I cant even face her anymore, i dont want to even deal with her but i gotta.
WE DONT DESERVE THIS, that's all i can say.
I MISS YOU MAMA<3
aw :(
ReplyDeletebess, it's really hard to deal with this kinds of situations. Like i said, this is only the first step. it's gonna get harder when you get used to not living with her. When you talk to her on the phone, it's gonna be different. you're gonna talk out of hate instead of talking nicely like you usually do.
ReplyDeleteThe other day my mom called me and we were on the phone for 10 min. and it was the longset conversation i had with her and i feel so stupid because i talk like a bitch to her.
Then like, before my mom hanged up, i just started tearing because I knew right there and then that i miss her. But i can't do nothing about it but to just keep it in because she fucked up.
The love for your mom will always be in your heart. We can get through this together ='(
AW BABE, this makes me sad :'( I don't like you seeing you down, love you forever baby! <3 no matter what, your mom loves you & you know that ;] be strong babe!
ReplyDelete