It's never 'goodbye'

Why do people say 'GOODBYE' when yor not gona see them for a helllluh longtime? Aint nothin' GOOD about thaaat!
But yehhh, Today my taylor lautner left, for those of yu who knw or dont knw,
Ridge Roy left to go navy for 5yrs? T_____T
Time flewww by fckn fast, tooo fast!
& I'll missss him for'shuaaaa. I remember those times he would try to make me laugh but it didnt work, so he would pop one of his cornnny ass pick-up line, then that would make me LOL smiley face! haaa. & when he first said, he looked like Taylor Lautner! & I played along & said he did, & that's how i started calling him that.
Ridge is hellluh funnny & niccce fellla, Ima misss his jokes & laughs!
I remembered that one time i was mad about su'in, so i told him, we had our deeeep convo. on MS, ha. Pwetty meaaaaan.
But, I'll hope he'll be safe up there!
LOOOVE & MISSS YOU ALOT! <3

Sometimes I

Wonder why I keep putting up w/ everyone's shit,
cz I am sick n' tired of shit that's putting me down. fuhhh-fcking-real.

BBackLator

OH NAH

Its fricccken OCTOBER! I swear somthin' verrry verrrry important is suppose to be happpenin by now!
But i think she lied, Whats new anyway!?
Idk, She just loves to keeeep pilin'up bulllshit,
Im muthafuckin ready for the truth anyday!
Whats so hard to say 'Were no movin' & im here for nothin'
Shhhhhit.
Whattttteva.

ANYWAYS, Its Fall break! ^_____^

A $leepless

Night! Cz of the stupid 5hr energy thingy! haa. Gahhhddayum,
So its like 515AM right now, i thinkk im gonna pull an all nigghter! haa.
Theres nothin' ta'do right now! Laptops broken, No1s awake, itouch dead, tv's gay! haha.
Anyways, today's muh bebehgirrrl's birthhday ! HB LETRICE KU'ULEI! Love youuu & Misssh you! ;)<3

AI HATE

When you wake up early, but you say '5 more mins' the next thing it's 1hr l888tuh! hahaha. c[;

Shit, that happpen to me ;[
& i beeeen dresssin' hash this whole weeek!
FML. Ha

EX-

AMMMM today! I hope i did goood on it, didnt reallly study. Only like las-min. kine.
I hate when i tell myself that i am gonnna do it, but next thing yu know, yu nolike auready. HA! fuck,
i gotta get my priorities straight.
Esp. on schooool! ugh,
Then a FML Moment happpened to me pd02, cz we hafta' memorize this pledge for Health academy,& i was sooo confident on this, so i said it out-loud & then i got it au' g UNTIL i forgot 3 words! So i said it wrong in front of the whole classs! & it was sooo easy! FML. Haha
& Pd03 was a chilllll classs today cz me, rhen n' krwn was just crackin' up on anykine, so we werent listenin' to the lecture, & mr. expected bettter from me, but he said: “lucky i like you nadine” LMAO!
Su' ugly. Everyone loves me ;P
Then pd04- was boooring today cz was misssin' my pd04 budddys allan n' jp
but bryan & i were teasin' 'stonnney eyes' LOL! cz her eyes loooook mean! haaa.
& bryan i swear, he dunoe how for read my handwritin' cz i mix up it a bit w/ cursive, but his is soooo messsy! haaa. check yo'self boy! ha.


PWETTTTYMUCH

UPDATED !

HAVENT BEEEEN ON THIS FOR A MONTH! SOOOO, ITS TIME TA UPDATE! :P HAA


HMMM, SEPTEMBER 2ND ALREADY! OH HOW THE MONTHS GOES SO FAST, BUT ANYWAYS..

TODAY/YSTRDAY AIDANO, WENT SHOPPPING AT ALAS W/ AIZ N' BEEEZY! IT WAS FUNNN, CZ THEY SU' DUM LIKE FAAREAL, ITS THOSR 'YU GOTTA BE THERE MOMENTS' ;) THOSE FUCKAS MADE MY DAY! I <3 $HOPPIN' W/ THEM. IT WASZ A GOOD DAY.


UGGH, GET SCHL IN LIKE 7 HRS, I CANT GO SLEEEEP ;( CZ MUH'HURR IS STILLL WET, & MYSPACE N' TWITTER IS BORRRAZ RIGHT NOW, SO YEEEE'
+ IM TALKING TO SUGAAA :)
HES SINGING, HAA ERRR'TIME BUT WHATEVER, ITS CUTE ;P

L888TES <3

AUG

Damn, i havent been on here for the longest! Rarely going on now, catch me on twitter! http://www.twitter.com/naaaadine


ANYWAYS, It's August already & yekno what that means :'[
Summer went by so fast! I expected it to be more fun,
Cie' la vie'

But yeh, hawwww. I dont wanna go! The days are going by faster then i think & then when it comes 18 then BYE BYE! :'[[[[ hawwww, But BBL on this. ima go sleeep, schl soon.


Hope to make the best of it*

WISHLIST

FOR MY $WT16 ALL I REALLY WANT IS..


Nikon D-40


&&&&


Itouch 3g

OR



Id be the happpiest! :DDD

I N D E P E N D E N C E

do you know what that means?! haaa.

Happy 4th of July!


Hoping to go out! Anywhere! danng,
If theres no plans today, then OH NOOO.
BBL.



BYYYE

1st

things first, Happy July01! haaa :]

So this mornin' i got an expected call, & it was from niggga! [:[
I didnt anwser because i want nothin' ta do with him already.
As i told myself.
BUT I anwsered for the heck of it,

&&&& I should of not! haaaa, shit. Wasteofmyfucking time.
He shouldve realized from the muthha fuckin' start! :P
Duh asssshole!

BOYSAREJERKS!

This month

of june went by pweedy fast.
& theres like 1 day til JULY already. damn,
Time is coming up fast, i need some excitment next month! :D

i went

out everyday this whole week, damn.

Monday- Out w/madre everywhere! & movies
Tues- Pearls w/madre
Weds- Wards w/ bess
Thurs- Alas n wards w/ rnld & movies

This week was G double O D :]
I love shoppping! :] But why do clothes have to be expensive D; haaa.

Anyways,I've been speding alooot of money,
& i hate it. hahah! i have to save up like faareeal serious.
I always say that but end up doing the opposite!
FAILURE. haaa.
I want a job -____- So i dont need to keep asking & my parentals wont keep saying
"you think your rich yea?" HAHAH! whaatev.

L8tors

Hmm,

Muuuthafucka nothin's new.

BUT like this afternoon,
I didnt think that niggga would call, but i was hopin' he was! :b
& he did & i felt happy,
But it's differnt when we talk, it feels like I give a less fuck about the situtation now. I mean IMSHIM TTM but Idk, something's different*

A fool

for believin'
TSSSK TSK TSK -___-

its hard ta get over it, but ill try



" good things happen to those who wait "

I did

learn from the mistakes i've made again, and i should've have listen to the others tha they have told me, but i didn't. I guess, i had to learn the hard way! D;

But i really do miss LDstz* ven thought it was just a fling,
I thought it woulda finallly get somewhere but i guess not! he chose not too cz of her.
I dont blame him, but he just kept putting me through his bullshit,
N got me fallling for yor dummmasss game with yor sweeet talking. stupid me,
Trust & believe, i hate this. I dont even know if i can trust a felllla frnw.

Have to deal with it, but it aint fair

"Summer days just

sitting around but when the sun goes down i'll be ready to party"

So today was a boring asss day, n it was helllla hot as usual. So I did summer cleanin' which is like errr' damn day! HAA. :D Cz, living with me, aint go be no
pig pen. haaa. Then, Showered n got ready for Deo's grad party.
It was fun, chilllled with homies. Then after party, drinked with them ;)
It was caarazy! like faareal, it was a 'you had to be there moment' <3 hahah.
Anywaays, fricken Ol' people called 5-0 on us cz we were too LOUD, we ran like there was not tmrw! n cleared errr'thing. Then came out n chilll,
we stilll were tooo loud, haaa. But deng, at the end of the late morning, he was tryna get at me! OH NO! hahah, he's like a bruhhtha to me. Crippp,
But i think he was just drunk! LMAO. Sooo wuuhtevers, Its alll good.
Just came home, uploading pics cz aizerie! haha. Night/Mornanng :)


KEHHH L8TUHHS, <3

I aint

gonna waste my summmmer! & you know why :'(
I'm feeeenin,



SUMMER WISH LIST:
-Outskeees day n night
-Go hotel
-Campin with homies
-hang with bessssties n bosstard
-Lunch/Dinner with OT {Dolled up status}
-Eat PH with homies :D
-WaterPark
-Around the island
-Beach hoppin'
-Mall hopppin'
-Sea life park/ Honozulu zoo
-Druken night
-Parrrrty!
-$hoppping like there's no tmrw ;D
+ ETC.


MORE TA COME ^__^

The end

of Sophmore year is done, and here comes Junior year.

Oh how it went by so quickly, Im gonna miss it.
Went through good & bad times times, struggles, dramas, laughters, etc.

& how i realzied how much Original tribe lasted! =}

From the beggining:


Till NOW:

+ APRIL I STOLE YOR PICTURES, BTW :) haa


BUT We weren't called "Original Tribe"
at first it was "PGDS" (Pretty girls dont swear)
& then we changed it, but i really dont know how we did. hahah.
Then it changed to Original Tribe and stayed that way,
Though we lost some D; but we gained a few ;]
Fuck them whoever lost us! BUT MAMA TRANS, were a different story,
ofcourse there still in Tribe, just not physically!
ehe, but WE MS THEM ALOT! <3 Hoping to reunite soon! :D

ANYWAYS, Im glad i met Tribe <3 All of us rarely "knew knew" each other,
aside from the HI'S. haha. & we bacame so close this year,
I can say that ALOT CHANGED from the beggining to the end,
& now i know who sticked through, ♥♥♥



TRUE FRIENDS*

Finals

Today for Pd. 1 & 2
I hope didnt FAIL for BOTH classes! D: Fingers crosss*
It was reallly difficut, no chilll class for me tmrw,
ughhh.

WELL, gottts ta study n catch up.
L888tas

CHEEEE

HOOOO!
Finallly got to meet you* ;P hahah.
I was shy through the night cz idk, it was somethin'
but it wasz fun, even though you hardly chillled w/ me. haha
I think hanging with you, i could get use to :)
It was out first time, so i dont know.


MAYBE*

Thank goodnesss

It's friday! cheeee. :D
Beeen a long weeek, n im tired of schl, cant wait til no more! haha.

TODAY- pd01 was a chill class, watched videos n laughed
pd02 had like buffet, yuuummmy! ;) ate goood food, n made strawberry shortcake cupcake ;)
pd03- booooring as always, reviewed for exams
pd04-anotha chill class, watched shindlers list, haw. i dnt like it, so racist! ;[
aftrschl- went with besss to eluwene ;P to seee her secretlovaah. nah jk :P then went her casa to eat icecream n talk then home.




+ANYWAYS, momma comes home tmrw morning'
oh have i msed her :} haha.


KEHHHBYE

Maybe

Im not trying hard enough to care, D;

-hasnt called since 23*
& i kind of ms it :(




BUT I DNT WANNA FALL HARD*

Lately I've

been noticing that my dad has been reallly irratating, like fa'real serious.
I dont know what his problem, but eversince my momma left it's like he changed to a fucking different person!
He's so overprotective! & when i say over protective i really mean it! like i cant' even go downstairs/ outside to hang with BG, or go over cassie's house when its just across the street! like WTFFFFF right! fareal' he's fucking tripppin bruhhh!
UGH, i swear, i hate it. like atleast gimme time cz' i aint gonna be here* anymore!
FUCK,
He doesnt understand, N' i hate staying home. who would ever like staying home, GUHH ROSS.
Every teenager, would love to go out n' get away from home. right?!

+ I miss momma already, its been almost a month, n' i thought i could live without her,
I was terribly wrong. I want her to come home ;(
Can't wait til she does! :D
- 5 moredays!




PARENTAL THESE DAYS. FUCK,

HMM

Schls beeen sucha drag lately,
major stresss is getting to me, maybe it's b'cz im failing biology!
& i REALLLY want to pass, but i just wanna give up on her class. ugh,
gotta start kisssin ass! haa.

BUT, cant' wait til school's over! damn,
SUMMMER is here! ;D

WOW

HAVENT BEEN UPDATING THIS SINCE FUH'EVA D;

THAT'S B'CZ I HAVE NO TIME. HAA.
SINCE, IM AWAKE I MIGHT AS WELL. :)

Apppril01

was 2 days ago. haaa. & i misssed blogging on that day. ha.
Anyways, April fooools day wasz funnn, besss came my house, & was just lazy & bored.
just was webcaming,
I got foooooled by Ronald that bitch, haha.

This weeek went by sooo fast,prettty soon were going back to schoool & its gonna be drag, ugh. waking up early & doing work. D;
spring break wasnt the way i wanted to go, i thought it wasz going to be better.
but its au'g.




FRNW i guesss,

Stuck

at home today, & aint feeeeling goood. damn, -_____-
Today i wasz suppose to go Anji's house.
haa. IMSHER. D; & i wanna hang with her before schooool starts! hmmm.
hopefulllly, this weeeekend! :D


uh, welllll. mama came home -___-
& im speechlesss, cz i have nothing to say or do with her.
I didnt talk to her though, & she doesnt bother me anymore.
SOOO, im okaaay with that, It just feeels weird.



ANYWAYS, i hate being at home, nothing to do except eat,sleeep,computer,be bored. UNHEALTHY i tell youuu, haha.
so if anyone wanna make plans, text/call ;D haha


L888tas

This week

had its ups & downs, but my downs didnt get to me! :D
mm, Spring break is going prettty goood, could be bettter.
Hang with BG & OT<3
but, we stillll got more catching up to do! haa,

This weeeeek:
Monday- went aizzy's house, haged w/ FAN4
Tuesday-stayed home, but chels came back! :)
Weds-Chillled w/ BG
Thurs- Beach bound with ot<3
Friday-Movies w/ girls<3

I looooved it, but theres 1 more week til' going back to schooool. UGH D;
& hopefulllly, there more things plannned ;D
Im down for it.


Spring Break Wish List:
- Shopppping Spree with Bessstfriend
- Hang with Besss,Bosstard & Mikey
- Out to Lunch or Dinner with OT, dolllled up status ;D
- Water park or Jetskiiing
- Sleeeepover at Anji's
- Around the island with BGH
& MUCH MORE :D


KEHHH for now.

OVER &DONE

Las'night was the fucking worst EVER. my madre & daddeh had an argument'
& it was about it* & i didnt know he knew all this time, & he kept his cool everysince.
fuck, i regret not telling him then, cz she cosz alot to our family.
I didnt want it to happen like this, but it did.
& what done is done.
I can never forgive her for this, NEVER. I still love her, & im missin' her already. But she should of thought of it before she did it, she knew the consequences, & what was gonna happen if she was going to do it! Its her fault, PERIOD.

& now, I cant even think straight. All this happeing' i cant even enjoy my break now, cz of this.
I hate it, I really do. BROKEN & DONE.
When i overheard my daddeh, i felt so sad, b'cosz he did his best & everything to her, She fucking stupid.

I couldn't even sleep las'night. Cant' help but cry, & cry :(
THIS IS BULLLSHIT,
I cant even face her anymore, i dont want to even deal with her but i gotta.

WE DONT DESERVE THIS, that's all i can say.

I MISS YOU MAMA<3

THREE-0-THREE

HAPPPPY GIRLS DAY! :) haaa.


Today- was another cold & windy day, damn.
& wearing long sleeves/sweaters/ jackets is irratating cz at the end of school, the sun comes out. I dont like this weather, I mean common, this is HI. -Ugh,
Aside of that, im catching a cold & I seriously dont like it. ;[
Halls isnt doing me any good.

Pd1 was funnnnn with Bess & fumi! ;PPPP if ya catched it. haha.
Hang'd with FAN.4 afterschool, went to zippy's. We had our Laughs & talks. <3;D
Then went to BESS'S house & baked brownies. YUMM.
Then her daddy dropped me home,
Myspace a little, & then doing this. I checked the weather & it says 69 degrees! it's hellla freeezing, -_____-


ALOHA.

I hate it

when people* see you
& they ack like they dont know you. UGH,



tell me not? HAHA.

HAPPY

NOT REALLLLY, but i havent been on this for a while,
so i mine aswell update this :) Anyways,






Maybe I just wasted my time & yours, it was all a mistake,
I thought you were different but nope, i guess 'THEY'RE ALL THE SAME'
& atleast if you're gonna do it, you can do much better, yeaaah?
WUHHH EVA. I dont need ya;



foooooled*

Everything is just

getting worse. Im getting sick n' tired of it too.
I know i have been posting about the subject alot*
but i cant help it ;[

I just wish she realized.


+ school is sucha drag now. I hope nothin is spliting us apart just cz some of them are hatin'
we can be drifting away, we just cant :(
I<3U TRIBE! no mattter

WERE GONNA GET THROUGH THIS,
& NOONE IS GONNA GET IN THE WAY

thinkin'

about alottta things, idk.today wasnt a good day for some reason;[
been having mood swings lately.


ANYWAYS, today, was an hour class. which was still long! -____-
pd1 had our oral quiz on jap convo. i hope i did good :)
pd2 baked cookies, yummmmmy.
pd3 fucking gayyyy! my A dropped to a fucking B+ =( haw,
pd4 had a map quiz, easssy. & still havin' an A :D yay.
had pep rally today, was hella boring as always, our class spirit is fucking sad. >=[ hahah
+OUU' i saw my boyfrannnn ;) hahahahahaha. i wish, :PPP haha.
afterschool, went kams with the girls then home. -___- now with nothin ta do. hopefully going out tonight!


KEHHH,

EYE

been thinkin' about things* & i dont know, feelin distracted by it.
it's irratating how she doesnt realize that it's dumb,
she desnt know that i know, & how long does she think this is gonna last?!?
im not stupid,
Idk, its been bugging me. & idnt know what ta' do.
I really want say it to her, but i always take 2 steps back. + what is my benefit for doing it? NOTHING.
& if ya' dnt know what im talking about, let's just say its a stupid thing you can ever do even if you have a family.





DNT KNOW A THING TA' DO

haven't

been on this for awhile.

anyways, ive been busy since school started again. & yekno what that means, hardly no time for this or myspace.

I really am trying to do better this semester, i nevr did try once to get the grades i could have, i just slack or give up.
ME + SCHOOL = BADD! D=
I hate it when my parents compare me to my sisters, i feel like i dont belong here because they're over achievers & then ME, just average or below average :(
hopefully this time is different,



CHANGING FOR THE GOOD

fouuuur

daaaays of no schoool ^____^ cheee.


today is boring cz of the stupppid weather! D;
& the news is sucha liaar, never had storm las'night & this morning,
but i guess thats okay. i nevr wanted a storm, just black out! :D haha.


i feeeel like in a shopping mood. haaaa.



for now,

Second

Day of schoool and was WAAAY better than first day,

FIRST day was not my day, 1st - 4th period was hellla boring.
atleast, got some* goood people in my class.







btw, HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY JACQUELYN ABAD! loves youuu forever n' evaa.

Lastday

before going back ta' schoool ;[


I aint ready, haa. mann, New classes, New people. Hopefully there's goood people! :)
back to struggglin' D; enuff of this. anwys..


Stayed up til' 3 something. talked to bossstard, he errrking. haha. he got a nu' fone! :D finallly git txting, but not unlimited. haha.
After talked to sunshine :) it was fun talking, but he fell alseep on me! haaa. loooser, but yehh. idano, if should talk ta' em cz yehhh. it's complicated.


FOR NOW, BYE.

Weekend

was fucking unreal ;D

Saturday,Went info's & finally bought ronald something. haaa. & ate menchies! YUMMMY! :)
My second was way better than my first one! =P haha.
After besss came over then went to anji's house to sleepover! (= Aizzy came over. It was hellllla fun. Camera whoring, dancing, playing confessions, serious talks, eating alot, played with her sisters, su' cute. hah. Nevr slep til' idk? ha.

Next day, Sunday- woke up 10, anji's mom made us breafast. & got ready to go JETSKIING at sandisland boat doc! ^___^ cheeee! haa. had davin, domo, robert there. & then we saw Austin* O___O i was suprised cz aftr all these years, i never saw him eversince 8th grade. haha. He came way handsommme! than before. ;) haha. freaaaal, he was nails before :P but now, he's a good looking muthha fucka ;D hahah. he got anji's attenion! LMAO :)
Cass & anji went jetskiing first with anji's daddeh. i had to wait my turn. haha. then when it was my turn oh no, i was realllly reaaally scared D: when we were jetskiing, we went so far look like we were by diamond head side already, but idk. anji's dad was turning we went the same direction & fell offf! -__- sad yeh? ha. i was scared! >< raced his friend. & headed back to the shallow already. dammmn, <3it
--2bcont..

got home around 5. slep til' 8 something. missed call frm sunshine ;[ got up & ate won ton min. MMM, then went outside.

ALOHA

Finallllly

went out yestrdae! ^__^ haha. out of the whole weeek. i was gonna get mad already ;P

talked to sunshine :) litttttle bit.
Spent it with Bessss at Kams. haha. Then went movies &d watched The Unborn. iloved it! ;D hahaha. but i got scared some parts =P


Overallll, it was a goood day. (=

BYE

WHATTT

A BORING ASS DAY! D;


suppose to go beach with OT & BOYS, but muthhha said not ta go out.
then gave it anther shot,asked her if i could go Anji's house, she said NO. haaa.
damn, shes iraaas. but W/E. im over it.


Today:
woke up around 10- something.
laid til' 11
went on myspace
took ashower
ate food
myspace & doing this now. D:



fucking gayassnesss, haha.
hopes to go out tmrw*



BYE.

& Another

Aloha.
This is my 3rd blogspot account. haaa. cz idano,i keep forgetting my password & icant login to it anymore. hahah.

Anyways, it's a NEW YEAR! 2009!
NEW Begginings, New Changes, New Memories to make.. & Hopefully No regrets this time.
& is anything changing?
that's a NEGATIVE! D: for some reason, i thought my new year was gonna be more exciting & less drama. I guess i was wrong, everything is opposite & i hate it.
Im gona vent right now, haha. cz, i cant help it.

-My momma, i thought she was gonna be atleast be less strict about everything, & i dont knoe whats up with her, shes just been getting on my case nowa days. & i can hardly go out! like serious moment, evn if its outside! damn,
&&& to top it off! shes been doing the same damnnnn thang* for how long already & it's getting worse! like fa'real. I just wanna confront her, but I can't. I have no courage to do that. & + i dont want a broken family :(
I mean, i would garentee have my daddeh's back no matttter. & I always, think about it* everyday, that i hoe she realizes what she doing, but i fucking guess not!



nthin fucking changed, i swear.